[Enrique speaking]
I brought these pants once from the house of one of my lovers who was very hot. She picked me up every Fridays and took me to her house and would not go out. Only to eat, but all the rest of the week-end was spent on fucking, fucking, fucking, fucking, and drinking some water and sleeping.
She was living in a high building and this way we could watch the city. There was a moment when I woke up, and the day had passed completely, and I had not seen the light of the day, I woke up and it was the middle of the afternoon. And so you would look out the window there, and the afternoon’s low sun rays would fall burning the clouds and the roofs.
I took a breath of air, I looked and said to myself: “This cannot be more beautiful, life cannot be more beautiful.”
So, one day that my pants got wet, it was these old pants there and I put it on to come back to my house and I never wanted to throw them away because of that. In reality, many times I have been on the edge of saying “fuck that, why do I want this, they are no use for anything.” But after, they reminded me of something, like a smell or a flavor of life, the flavor of fullness. Truthfully, being a lazy ass, it’s something unuseful, that is no use for anyone, and it’s intimate. Even if you explain that to someone, maybe he will become emotional, but after he forgets about it because nobody cares about it. It’s something that only matters to you but that has a memory very profound about what it means to live happy.
I remember this… I am sure that the gods are so generous that often, when they offer something once, they offer it twice. If one day you are able to ride a bicycle, perhaps you’ll never be able to do it again for the rest of your life. But then, one day, after you lose your physical capacity, they would give you a bicycle again; you will feel sure that you’ll be able to ride it again. Taking the risk. The eternal return is not repeating the same mistake twice. The eternal return is to bloom again. So, that’s why I am giving you these pants to see if you can you can take the risk.
